pi & anne

I know I’m not okay / when I feel the urge to look you up on social media. / I know I’m not okay. / I do not need you to prove that to me, so / what is true is /  I’m worse, when I feel the urge to look you up on social media.

It says
                     Leah Brahms
       It says
                            The computer says no
              It says
                                    I am nothing, if I don't have you

It doesn’t say a thing.
It is a a box of grey concrete.

I draw a face on it with red crayon.
I write a word on it with one of my fingertips.
I water it with a can.
I sit at its side for periods of time.

It doesn’t grow.

It doesn’t grow    anything.

It doesn’t grow    anything    for anybody.

It doesn’t say anything. / It it it it it it it it.

It’s worse, when I remember you.